I don’t know if it’s just that I’ve been hanging around “too many” holistic people
or if it’s something else, but the term “practicing detachment” keeps popping up everywhere I go. I think I’ve heard it so often, that I started to do it (yay!).
Now, despite how it sounds, “practicing detachment” isn’t about not caring or being cold, it’s about taking a step back from where you are, looking at a situation objectively and reacting in a way that is congruent with this.
For example, if you always get into the same arguments with family and you always end up angry and wound up in the exact same way, you’ll always get the same, equally angry response from them. Detachment means you think a bit before reacting, possibly saying something different – or saying what you’ve always been saying in a different way and getting a different response.
It sounds pretty logical, but I know that people are creatures of habit, so we go through our own little “Groundhog Days” over and over again without realizing.
So this is what happened: I decide to bring my laptop to the office, plug it in, plug in my mouse and it decides to stop working.
Lappy would turn on fine with no problem but then freeze on a black screen – it’s the “loading” screen right after the Vista logo disappears. It would continue to make sounds as if it were busy, but 5 minutes pass, then 10.
I decided to force shutdown and restart: this is usually my first line of defence when anything goes wrong with any computer.
Didn’t work.
I tried restarting in “safe mode”, which worked fine. Maybe I overloaded it before (from trying to start it up?) and I try “normal mode” again.
Didn’t work. Froze in the exact same place.
Back in “safe mode”, I did a system restore to one day before, the day that I had an update. Surely, this was the issue. I breathed a sign of relief when my background image loaded fine, nothing like David Regelin and Ame Wren doing arm balances to soothe the soul.
But then it froze again.
Diagnosis time in “safe mode”. Apparently, Windows thinks that nothing is wrong.
Out of ideas, I thought, “well, maybe it’s time to format” – I haven’t done it in a few years and have accumulated a LOT of junk so it’s a good time. I back up all my important stuff in “safe mode”, took a deep breath, and formatted. Mind you, that sentence sounds easy, but it took a good few hours.
Normal mode starts up fine again, starts installing Vista, no problems. Then it starts installing the extras that came with Lappy: the webcam, PowerDVD, etc…and it freezes.
That. Wasn’t. Supposed. To. Happen. That was pretty much my last resort.
At this point, several hours after this whole ordeal started, my usual reaction would’ve been to cry. Then cry to my brother, because, you know, guy who works in a bank in a position that has nothing to do with computers would definitely know how to troubleshoot my computer. And based on previous scripts, I believe that his reaction would have been, “I don’t know, have you tried restarting?” This would’ve been followed by more crying, a bit of anxiety and thoughts like, “what am I going to do?”
The decision? Detachment. Instead of the same emotional rerun all over again, I decide to take a break. Take a step back, away from the current situation, catch a breather – it might help me gain insight on the situation or, if not that, then at least help me keep my cool. I chose to read some Dr Phil during this break – might as well improve myself during the wait.
Several hours later, I take another deep breath and tried turning it on again. Freezes in the same place.
So, I force shut down. I wait about 2 minutes. I then decided, “well, I’m going to simplify everything as much as possible, because for whatever reason, Lappy seems to be overloaded”. Without really knowing how much more I could simplify (I did erase everything!), I unplug the mouse.
E.U.R.E.K.A! Like magic, my programs finish installing, no problem. I am able to copy my files back without it freezing. I can install my own programs and delete the extra ones that Lappy came with. I am able to access everything on my computer with no problems. I can access multiple programs at one time and hook up to the internet. Everything started working fine.
And thus, Occam’s Razor in all it’s glory. The simplest methods are always the best. It took me the whole weekend to restore my computer back to where it was because I was trying all those fancy, computer-savvy techniques. Apparently, all I really had to do was unplug the mouse.
Lesson. Learned.